Rhapsody in Black

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Saturday, May 29, 2004

If Your Feet Could Talk What Would They Say?
...How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news...
My feet have had a pretty interesting day thus far. Beginning this morning, I soaked them in this very lovely smelling salt stuff. I knew I'd be on my feet pretty much all day so I wanted to begin their day by a little pampering. I bought this awesome outfit for the graduation and along with it a nice pair of Mary Jane sandals. I walked in the sandals at the shoe store and they felt amazing. For shoes, it's all about how they feel. Anyway so I was all set. Jumped in my car and drove off only to have my shoes fall off several times whilst I was driving.
The graduation ceremony was outstanding. I (unfortunately didn't graduate this year like I had originally planned waaay back in 2000) sat in my seat beside (who I am assuming is) Josh Flikweert's grandfather (I know this because he clapped when Josh walked across the platform, and he also took pictures). He was nice. Brian Dijkema's speech was great, I sat pondering what I would say if I was up there. I'd probably begin by saying that I am in no such way a public speaker. I would talk about the quirks of some of my dearest professors ("And that was a digression"..."Bonjour tout la monde"). And I would end by saying how fortunate it is to receive a degree from an higher Christian education facility. Brian Dijkema did an excellent job. He reminded us of what it was like to come to school on the first day, how it was like summer camp and not a facility of academia. Unfortunately I did not participate in the F.R.O.G Olympics in my first year, but the memories Brian shared made them seem so real. And Congratulations to him as well for earning the faculty award (?).
The speaker's intended message was great. She spoke of how we are as Christians supposed to live in non-conformity and non-relativism. Her degree was in Law specializing in Christian Rights and Freedom. The one thing I learned from her was that if one doesn't know what they are going to do with their lives, they get a law degree (she said that herself). Her speech was very good though, it really touched me as a non- conformist myself. However, her presentation was lacking a certain enthusiasm and vigor. Maybe she was tired.
When Dr. Ellens, Richard Wikkerink and Dr. Cooper got up to begin the actual presenting of degrees my heart started to pound. I was excited for the graduates, especially my best friend Carrie. Such an amazing experience and accomplishment.
The gathering outside was nice, following the ceremony. There was such an excitement. Carrie and I decided to do some pictures so I promptly stood on a red ant hill as the picture was being snapped. The ants crawled into my shoes and went to town. My leg is very tingly not to mention my foot blotchy. It may be itchy, I am not sure. I really can't feel it that much. After much more walking around I decided to leave. It was a beautiful day, I can't wait until next year.
So, my feet would say "mufdaihgiwohkjxfhiuy aiuwey fj oigy " because they are numb it would come out like that I am sure.

Friday, May 28, 2004

Hit the Nail on the Head
My mother sent this to me. She knows I like to "hear it like it is" and be blunt about things, especially about religion and sin. I want to say that I prayed this, however I did not. A pastor in the states did, and God bless him for it. He didn't pacify people praying candy coated prayers, he dealt it the way it is. If anything I have ever said or ever meant, this is it all wrapped up in a single prayer:

"Dear Heavenly Father we know Your Word says, 'Woe to those who call evil good,' but that is exactly what we have done. We have lost our spiritual equilibrium and reversed our values. We confess that we have ridiculed the absolute truth of Your Word and call it Pluralism. We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery. We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare. We have killed our unborn and called it choice. We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable. We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building self esteem. We have abused power and called it politics. We have coveted our neighbor's possessions and called it ambition. We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it freedom of expression. We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment.
Search us, Oh, God, and know our hearts today; cleanse us from every sin and set us free. Amen!"

...it may not be full of religious jargin that may satisfies us, but it is full of truth. If only we could realize the seriousness of it all.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

Things I Have Never Done
~rode a llama in Kyrgyzstan
~drove my car with my feet
~my readings for a certain class but passed with an A (music class)
~watched a scary movie alone
~shaved my head and but a bucket on it and streaked down the street
~watched 24
~sat on the roof of my house
~sat on the roof of anyone's house
~picked my nose
~not cried in an airport
~sped and got caught
...it's the summer, I am tired don't expect me to be intellectual. *bah*

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

And the Days Keep Getting Longer
Sometimes I wonder if I even have the strength to carry on another day. I have no idea where I am going with this post. I just know that I am in shut down mode. When you see my little picture on the side it is hard to picture perky 'ole me curling up in a ball and hiding under my bed. I am just walking straight behind a brick wall (or so it seems). No matter where I put my feet, the wall is still there. I am not sure if I am just depressed because I am cold and my blanket is 5 feet away from me, or if I am just fed up. I thought that when school was done for the year I'd begin to actually live my life (for the summer) and be adventuresome. I had this idea where I would take a road trip with a few of my close friends to anywhere but here and just sit up with the glow of headlights talking and laughing about our days together at school that are almost over. I wanted to laugh like a highschool kid again. I wanted to eat cotton candy and drink gallons of coke in one night, playing truth or dare (even though I am how old?) Now for some reason I want to lay in bed under my big comforter with my thunderstorm cd and hide away for three months. I want to shut the spinning world out and leave my problems at the back door. What I really want is to run away. I think I have wanted to run away for quite a while now. I keep wondering why I am sick, if I was somewhere else I wouldn't be sick. If I was alone in some mountain cave in Tibet I wouldn't be sick. I think I am just disappointed. When your life is staring you in the face (clap your hands) what do you do?
I did something mean today. I engaged myself in bash talking about some girl I work with. One of my co-workers asked if I liked *Mike Hancock (name has been changed). I said, oh I don't really know her, why? and they continued to go on and on about how ditzy Mike Hancock is and how she can't do her job properly. So while I am bashing Mike Hancock (quietly not to her face) she goes and covers my Saturday shift that I had written in the book. I could have kicked myself. I can't believe how mean I was and..UG I am disgusted with myself. Anyways. I am in a funk, and I am sorry. You'll just have to deal with it for now.
...moving on...
~I saw Shrek 2. It was alittle funny. I'd rather watch Schindler's List anyday, but I mean...hey. (sorry my funkiness is seeping out again)
~I re-named my cat Tilly. Her new name is Mike Wiszowski.
~Saw Carrie today (she bought me a nice gift...the traditional Carrie gift...a thong)
End. Finis. Done. Complete

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Just some stuff to look at:

Marleen Jellybean Koch (she doesn't have a middle name so we gave her one)

Elise my uber eclectic friend

Me and my "wife" and our "baby" (a sheep heart) Prunella

Monday, May 24, 2004

Summer Update
(a la Graham Ware style)

~working working working, luckily my hours are great and the people I work with aren't as crazy as the Saturday People (yes that means Barb, Melanie, Laurie, etc.)

~my tan *cough cough* ear burn has peeled and is now white and pasty hence my bro's new nickname for me "White Pasty Girl" (at least I am not pretending to be a white pasty girl, where as you pretend to be black...POSER!!!)

~It seems I have strayed FAR FAR away from my summer reading list. I have got myself caught up in reading Charles Spurgeon. I have had to put Sons and Lovers down for a bit because I was getting to caught up in the story (for a 5th time). And I did read Lytton Stratchy (I know I just spelled his name wrong) and I was even ready to write a blog entry on him when I was suddenly shut down, by my own self. The entry was called Mr. Homosexual (Lytton being gay). I was going to give a little overview of his writings and life when the thought hit me....he I am giving a mini biography on the Bloomsbury BOIGRAPHER, how about I don't and say I did.
...moving on...

~visited my friends new camera, she is a beauty

~was sick the whole holiday weekend, even while I worked, so I did nothing (yeah that's right)

~met some new girls at church who are apparently cousins of Jason Legg, and if I knew him better I might tell him. They are: Melissa, Rebecca and Natalie (Altees I think). They used to go to the Joshua Centre Church so if you know them, hey that's great. Anyways they are new at my church and are wanting to start a College and Career Group (YAY!)

~ made Laurie (my co-worker) mad. She had some really interesting historical piece of information that she thought I would like to know. She was all excited to tell me and my response was "yeah I knew that." Poor woman's face dropped. I felt so bad that I stole her excitement. Next time I will play dumb.

~oh, I did do something this weekend, I went to a birthday party for my grandmother. I was sick so I only ate ice cream. But I sat with her and my mother and just listened to their conversation. They are the most beautiful women I know, and so spiritually sound as well. I am amazed.

~today I work and get double time and a half, which would be awesome if I wasn't missing two days of work next week (all of these days fall in the same pay period for me, unfortunately).

~and finally, I bought some fun clothes. Red capris, yeah that's right. They are red. I also bought something to wear to graduation on Saturday. It is always great when you buy new clothes. Makes you feel brand new, until you've worn them a few times.

Ok so that's it.