Rhapsody in Black

Designed to Make You Feel Like the Sane One

Saturday, February 07, 2004


Ok, so I am happy.....I don't have to be mean to smart Philmont and YAY I can now have paragraphs....does everyone have to do this to their blogs? Like put the BR tags? weird.....ok anyways


Lets see if this works.....if it works, Philmont I will be forever in debted to you

Because you are so smart when it comes to computer things as I am not

Ok, so uh, I am just going to go ahead and publish this

Philmont, if you are wrong....beware of my wrath

Thursday, February 05, 2004

The Flea

mark but this flea, and mark in this, how little that which thou deniest me is; me it sucked first, and now sucks thee, and in this flea our two bloods mingled be; thou know'st that this cannot be said a sin, or a shame, or loss of maidenhead, yet this enjoys before it woo, and pampered swells with one blood made of two, and this, alas is more that we would do.

Oh stay, three lives in one flea spare, where we almost, nay more that married are. This flea is you and I, and this our marriage bed and marriage temple is; though parents ggrudge, and you we are met, and cloistered in these living walls of jet. Though use make you apt to kill me, Let not to that self-murder added be, and sacrilege, three sins in killing three.

Cruel and sudden, hast thou since purpled thy nail in blood of innocence? Wherein could this flea guilty be, except in that drop which is sucked from thee? Yet thou triumph'st and say'st that thou find'st not they self nor me the weaker now; 'tis true' then learn how false fears be: Just so much honoour, when thou yeild'st to me, will waste, as this flea's death took life from thee.~ John Donne.
Your thoughts? A great poem studied in class today. I must say, I enjoyed it thoroughly! (seems that making paragraphs on this blog doesn't work)

Fantabulasa Rasa

Wouldn't it be nice if we could just forget about everything that has happened in our lives thus far, and start over? One would think that would be swell, but would it be ideal? Ideally we want everything, look beautiful, have a fancy car, yadda yadda yadda, and we can have that....but to look back on a life sans mistakes and failures, and joys all the same....I would rather not start over.
This is just in answer to a question someone posed to me the other day. So that is my answer, is it adequate?

Sunday, February 01, 2004


I was thinking of the Marine Land song when I started typing the title for this blog. The disgusting song that gets stuck in heads and really never goes away ALL summer. That's right, that one. I personally do not like Marine Land, but that is not what this blog is going to be about. When I complain it is usually about my school, my papers, my school, life, my school etc. Big money guzzling, tacky theme parks is not on the agenda of complaints, I'd rather not waste my time. So today I will be talking about happiness. It was the only subject I could come up with while I procrastinate from typing up a proof read paper. There are many things in life which one could be thankful for (grass, food, sunshine, horses, fruit loops, and for some falafel) but I am not thinking on those lines of being happy. I guess what I am trying to get at is being content (with ones self and his/her accomplishments). For me, feeling content isn't something that I feel often. I feel like I am always overachieving on the dumb things and then beating myself up trying to catch up on the more significant things. My dumb thing list is pretty dumb, and now I am scrambling to catch up on the significant things like getting an 11 point GPA, moving up in the musicianship world, advancing in the workplace etc. I am not content in that area. For the most part I am happy (don't get me wrong, this blog may seem depressing, but I am not depressed). I am very happy at the moment. I just feel that I am behind. This is certainly not a "woe -is -me" complaint fest, I hate my life blah...I am completely happy, just alittle tired, and worn out by the day to day things that keep me trying to overachieve, and keep me scrambling.

Philmont: I am thinking of changing my philosophy paper topic. I know that Mind Recollection/Repression is an awesome topic, but I think I will score bigger points in the butt kissing student department if I do it on Hegel's influence on the Marxist Dialectic. My good friend, with a M.A in history helped me sort out my concerns regarding my paper topic search. Although, you maybe interested in my paper topic for Reformation Theology (REL 251) which I will be talking about the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. Sure to be a good hit....unless I leave it until the last minute. Again, my apologies on the PHL 355 topic.

"Everyone LOVES Marine Land"